I've been having severe stomach churning most of the day. Oh God this is such a horrible feeling. Constant doubts if I am doing the right thing. Constantly wondering if I am going to seriously regret this decision. Memory after memory of good times, usually on holiday. Thoughts of my GF and I happy and relaxed with each other.
Such a strong desire to smoke. Such a strong desire to drink.
Repeated thoughts of escaping into the bottle with a half ounce of tobacco. PLEASE GOD, take the cravings away from me. Please just remove them from me.
I feel as though things are drawing to a head now. Only a matter of 72 hours, or thereabouts, until the truth has to be told and there is no going back. You see, even at this stage of the game no damage has been done. I could still forget all about this and let it fade in to the ether. Say and think no more about it, and carry on kicking the can down the street..... possibly forever.
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